Plimbare Nocturna/Make You Feel My Love

Plimbare nocturna

In seara asta e curent in statia de metrou, iar parul imi zboara in toate directiile. S-asa e ud de la ploaie... Ajung pe peron si ma asez repede pe o bancuta. Sunt asa de pierduta in lumea mea incat nici nu-mi dau seama ca a ajuns trenul. Ma urc in tren, iar pana la statia mea, din nou ma pierd in alta lume. N-am castile in  urechi, dar in mintea mea canta o melodie bine cunoscuta. Tipul in costum de langa mine imi arunca o privire ciudata, de parca as fi o aratare a noptii. Dupa mirosul de bere imi dau seama ca tot ce vede el e din alta dimensiune. Cateva scaune mai incolo, ea tocmai adormise in bratele lui. Nu ma mir. E seara tarziu si e vremea minunata a sesiunii. Cu greu ma rup din vis si ma ridic de pe scaun. Da, e statia mea. 

Afara in continuare ploua, dar sincer chiar imi place. Mi-ar placea si mai mult daca ar fi furtuna, cu tunete si fulgere si ploi torentiale. Ies din metrou si ma indrept incet, incet, spre casa. Drumul ma duce pe langa parc, pe sub castani infloriti. Nu stiu daca de la ei vine mireasma asta atat de placuta, dar nu prea imi pasa. Ma bucur de ea, pentru ca nu prea am de ce altceva. Melodia din gandurile mele se repeta neincetat, iar eu mai un pic si ajung pe strada mea. Ma indrept spre colt iar inima imi salta cu speranta ca ma astepta in fata blocului. Evident, filmul meu nu corespunde cu realitatea. Intru in bloc, iar cand ajung la etajul 5, etajul meu, aceleasi ganduri imi umplu mintea. Dar din nou, filmul meu... e doar al meu. In apartament e frig, e intuneric... si e gol.

Adele - Make You Feel My Love

It's The End Of The World As We Know It... And I Feel Fine

Inevitably, this song popped into my head the other day. Quite a cliche, isn't it? Well I'm not too sure that it really works right now. Civil War in Libya, an earthquake in Japan (plus the possibility of nuclear disaster), protests in Bahrain, Yemen, and pretty much the whole of the Middle East, the U.N.'s inability to make any decisions about it, etc., etc. These are just a few of the things going on lately. 

I could probably go on and on about the situation in Libya. But I'm not going to bore you with that. All I will say is that I'm so unbelievably frustrated about the whole thing. Every time I watch the news I get a headache. The news reports about Japan are painful to watch as well. Apparently we can't get enough of seeing horrifying videos of people being taken away by the water. Somehow, everything's gone up in smoke at the same time. But if you stop and think about it, this whole year has been marked by shocking events. Remember the Moscow Airport bombings for example. Furthermore, natural disasters such as earthquakes have been on the increase in the past decade. Unrest in the Middle East (and not to mention the war in Afghanistan or Iraq) are also on the news on a monthly basis. So, is it really the end of the world as we know it? Or is this just, life as we know it?

It seems to me that these things have now become the norm. The situation is not getting worse, it's become the normal situation. Either way, I don't particularly like it. But as the song goes, "and I feel fine..."

R.E.M. - It's The End Of The World As We Know It... And I Feel Fine

Here We Go Again

It's 3 am and I'm in bed listening to Norah Jones. And as usual I can't seem to be able to fall asleep... 

So as my mind was drifting away to many places a question popped into my head (yet again). Some time ago, a friend asked me this: "Is love ever enough?". I gave it some thought, but couldn't really decide on an answer. And I don't have a proper one tonight. But maybe it can be. Why? Because everyday something happens which makes me sad and believing in things like this make me smile. I'm well aware that most of the time love isn't enough, whether it's because of people being miles apart, someone having a moment of doubt or whatever. But once in a while it seems to be possible. Somehow, somewhere, love is enough. All I can say is that I want to believe it is.

Otherwise, what's the point?

Norah Jones & Ray Charles - Here We Go Again

Quelqu'un m'a dit

There's a thought that's been nagging me the whole day. Sometimes, we ask ourselves or other people questions we don't want to be answered. Or do we want to know? Say for example,"Do you still love me?". Sure, logic dictates that we should know the answer in order to figure out our next move. We want to know, we need to know. The insecurity drives us up the walls.

But if you think about it, do you really want to know? Whatever the question may be, there's always the possibility that the answer is not the one we want. You think that after the question has been asked and the answer given, you'll be able to deal with it. Because now you know. I beg to differ. It's not the wait we fear the most, the helpless state of not knowing. It's the answer. And the reason for this is quite simple. When you have such a question that eats away at you, chances are you already know the answer to it. It's been there all the time. You just chose to ignore it.

So instead of sleepless nights and endless conversations with yourself, just ask. Ask that question, whatever it may be. And with a little luck, you might get the answer you're looking for.

The song came to my mind while I was writing. It may not have much to do with what I wrote, but it felt right. Carla Bruni released her debut album in 2002 called "Quelqu'un m'a dit". It had success in Europe and sold 1.2 million copies in France.

The Fear You Won't Fall

"Everybody misses falling in love". A friend told me that this evening and I can't really get it out of my head. Sure, the way you feel when you're falling in love with someone is indescribable. It's like a daze, like the world is your oyster. But is it really that simple?

You meet someone, you start talking, go out for drinks, maybe see a film. And you start fancying that someone. And then it gets complicated. Why? I don't know and I've been asking myself for years. In a world where romance has pretty much disappeared, do we have time for all this? Do we have time to play the game of flirting? Life goes by whether we want to or not and it's not gonna stop just because we want it to. We spend our days running from place to place, with barely anytime for ourselves. Thus, we're inclined to skip that whole phase and replace it with a straight answer: Yes or No? We eliminate the risk of getting hurt because we never had the time to start caring for someone. And that I believe, is one of the saddest things in the world.

There's nothing like falling in love. No other thing can replace that feeling. So maybe, just maybe, we can risk falling in love. And maybe that someone will fall in love too...


The song that got me to thinking is "The Fear You Won't Fall" by Joshua Radin.